He Satiates Me...

Most of us shy away from writing about God because we are afraid that there will not be any takers for our blog. What if I will be labelled as a maniac? What if people just overlook my Blog? What if my peers don’t acquiesce me? These are some of the questions that run through our minds. Perception of God varies from a person to person.The juvenile Gen X/Youngistan believes that God is for the senile/grey-haired ilk-something you turn to when you retire and when you are relieved of all your responsibilities in life. For some God manifests through rituals; they follow rituals blindly even if that makes no sense. There are some for whom God is confined to Sundays, festivals, hard times, exams and so on. Then there are those who worship God out of fear, they believe that if I don’t follow this (a ritual, a custom), perform a puja, don’t live a good life, I will see God’s wrath.

But what if God wishes to be your friend and thereby becomes your friend? Someone who walks with you in your life, someone who makes wonders and helps you surmount obstacles and blesses you abundantly. Would you not talk about him? I’m a practicing Christian. However Christianity is more of a way of life than as a religion, a doctrine and an ideology. Let me not connote further. Below is a poem that I found in the rummage of my book shelf. I wrote this POEM when in class X, when I was down-in-the-dumps. Read on...

Lying on the couch and gazing
At the black clouds, makes
my predicament more miserable
makes me feel like a poor Lamb.

A Lamb that’s certainly not lost
But a Lamb that feels secluded
Even among a great herd of Lambs
in the deep dark forest

I wonder so often, is life all
a bed of thorns? Happiness
seems to elude me, every time I
try to be and that is the tragedy

A colossal of troubles, catastrophes,
miseries, I have gone through in life
so massive! Like the innumerable
Stars in the sky at night.

The injustice that happened
many a times, the pain and
the hurt my loved ones gave
me, when not anticipating…

This is so pensive, I know…
and the one who reads this
will certainly write me off
as a poor thing but think again!

I’m NOT as there is this
someone who doesn’t let
me fall, eveytime I trip
he never let me went astray

He who holds my fingers and makes
me tread the thorny paths in life
he, who understood me, whose
love is so abundant, so pure…

His love for me is so overflowing
that made me wonder struck
such love never have I found
not even in my parents, my friends…

He who said “I’m there”
his promises ever so true
he, who moulded me,
who was a solace in trying times

How can I forget the wonderful
Lessons of life he taught me,
The risks to take in life, to stand
Up for what I believe is right

I’m not me today without
him, the bold, self-assured
confident person I’m today is
because of him who lives in me

Yes! It’s my great, beloved
Friend: Jesus! The almighty!
And now I wonder what a fool I was
to pity myself as he satiates my life.

People often say that happiness is a state-of-mind. So what makes me happy?I’m happy because I have Jesus in my life.
“To live is Christ and to die is gain” Philippians 1:21

This is just a tip of the iceberg. There are loads to talk about my experiences and relationship with Christ. However that merits a blog of its own: an entity per se.Perhaps I will start one, once I’m done with my MA after April 2009 as I need to plumb into the depths to write and give insights. Having said that Christ is neither complex nor convoluted. Just that I can’t squeeze in time and I don’t want to take up something I can’t do justice to.I want to take time and prepare myself for it.

PS: The intention of this post is not to impose religion on anybody.Everyone is free to choose and follow religion of their choice. Its one of the fundamental rights. I’m only sharing my testimony.